I don't know what's been wrong with me lately but I have been in this slum for awhile
and it has been driving me crazy but I cannot get out of it. I think it might have something to
do with the weather because I have always been the kind of person that if the weather is bad
and gloomy my mood is usually sad and low. Lately I have been in this mood that I don't care
to try to impress people it takes to much effort. I am worn out from the everyday routine
of waking up getting kids ready, cleaning house, doing laundry, making meals, cleaning up
again. and making dinner and then putting kids to bed..don't get me wrong I love my family
and wouldn't have it any other way but it feels so much lately like I am a robot..And it's hard when your husband works at 5 in the morning and comes home at 6 at night then some
of the nights he's gone because he is the scout master and has activities and meetings. I feel like
I haven't had even enough time just to sit and talk to him about everyday things because it's either he's on the phone 24 seven because if it's not people calling him from church about scouts
it work all the time I tell you I almost wish i lived in a time where there were no cell phones and life was much more simple..There is not enough hours in the day!!! I love my life and wouldn't change n e thing but it just feels like I need a change and can't quite figure it out..Is it me? or should I just be grateful for everything I have, yeah I know I should go to the temple more I can't even remember the last time Nate and I went to the Temple? Actually I can't remember
when Nate and I just went on a date together just the two of us? It also doesn't help just having a baby either because when your nursing I know you hormones are still crazy I feel like I never get ready for the day, there is somedays that exercising is the last thing on my mind actually who am I fooling exercising sucks!!!but you feel like you have to have that skinny body to look like everyone else and it doesn't help that you have sisters and sister in laws that are the size of tooth picks and I mean that literally...I can't believe I am venting on here but it kind of helps I told my self when I started a blog that it wouldn't be those one's that everyday is a great day and we are always doing fun things NO!! I am just like everyone else having high's and low's in my life and it might look like I am great and things are always happy on the outside but I am not I have just as much low's in life as the next person..I hope the weather gets nicer soon or it is going to be a long week..So like I said I will just blame my mood on the weather...other wise my poor husband will be in for a long week...Don't you just love being a girl..I know I do.