Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Feeling GUILTY...

So lately I have been having to work alot of Overtime for my job so it feels like I have been on the computer endlessly..I honestly feel like a bad mom...The T.V. is my kids entertainment and parent these days...Well monday morning I was just about to go work on my computer and my little four year old Jordan looks up at me and says " Mom can't you just hang out with me you are always on the computer. " I stopped what I was doing and looked at him and said you know what your right I am not going to work today we are going to go to the store and get a movie and stop at mcdonald and come home and watch it together..Of course he picked out Astro boy but you know what I loved every minute of it. we both got under the blanket and layed on the couch and watched the movie.Even Katelyn layed with us it was so nice and so needed I think as a mom I have been starting to feel like I have needed to work I don't know if I get nervous because of the economy and everything happening that I need to save up but I was talking to one of my friends who is always doing fun things with her kids and her kids are so good and she has such a good relationship with them. I started looking at my kids and they are wild at times and always complaining..But I know that my kids act out cause they want attention lets just say it's been crazy and she had the best advise..She said we only have this little amount of time with these kids.. and then they start going to school and then they want to just be with there friends..Enjoy the time you have with them because it will be gone before you know it...So true Money isn't everything..I need to start taking her advise as long as we are living how we are suppose to and paying our tithing everything will fall into place..I have totally forgetten the important things in life and money shouldn't be one of them..Yeah I have to work but I think my Overtime days are done..Yeah the money is nice but my kids are more important...Sorry such a downer post but I honestly think that is why I have been down alot I am sick of looking at the computer..Now that spring is here I am going to start having fun and get out of my house. here is to Thomas S. Monson advise Enjoy the Journey!!! which is what I am going to do I love my kids so much and I don't want them to remember me as my mom always is working..I want them to remember all the little things my mom did with me..

6 comments:

  1. Yay for you, Des! I don't have a job at home and I'm spending waaaay too much time on my comp. Thanks for the reminder.

    (this is me getting off ;)

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  2. I know how you feel. Work has been taking over everything. My poor little Gaby is turning into a babysitter instead of being able to just have fun after school. I stopped working over time the other day to just sit back and hang out with the kids. I can't wait until work is under control and life can really get back to normal.

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  3. You go girl! I have a hard time myself finding "balance" Thanks for the reminder, I too focus too much on unimportant things!

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  4. I love ya des you are an amazing mother I hope you know that, and yes unfortunately we have jobs sometimes take us away but you are so awesome and I just love ya!!!

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  5. Amen. something I really need to pay attention to as well. I always crave to work, but its cause I feel like I need to get out of the house for a few hours, but I see your point, our kids get big before we know it. great post, yoru a good mom and I hope you know that!

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  6. I know your a pretty consistant reader! thank you and I knew to keep you on before I even did my deleting! Des, thank you for your comment! sometimes I feel so alone in my blogging world wondering, "I wonder if anyone gets what im trying to say" sometimes I dont think anyone does. If you can relate to me then tell me im not going nuts, because otherwise, I always feel like a nut case! Life is hard and I just need to remember that there are oppositions in all things. I love you and appreciate your comments so much-you have no idea.

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